if its for real. its forever.<3

Fri, 19 May 2006 21:56:58 GMT

i havent updated in like over a month... alot has happend.... i dont care to get into details... but lets just say me and pat arent really together anymore... i guess i just need some space and some time to think things over... am i making the biggest mistake of my life???

Tue, 04 Apr 2006 22:27:51 GMT

i havent updated at all for like a whole month♥ today is me and pat's 1 year and 5 month anniversary♥

thats all for now.

♥erin

Mon, 06 Mar 2006 02:06:10 GMT

so this weekend pretty much sucked. friday i come home from school to find that my grandpa who lives down in florida had a heart attack. saturday was me and pats 1 year and 4 months but it turned out that he completely forgot. i knew he was going to though. i went to his show lastnight, they sounded really good. and then i mentioned to pat how he forgot and he felt bad. its okay though. i still love him the same. and then today i pretty much did nothing. my dad left for florida, has no idea when hes coming home because my grandpas having open heart surgery and no onw knows whats going to happen. and now i have to stay home like everyday because my sister can't stay home alone and my mom has work from 6pm-5am and my dads not here. so i have to be here with her. shes so gay. grrrrr. but yea. idk... im kinda stressed right now. cheer me up? alw[♥]ys, erin

Sat, 04 Mar 2006 06:24:16 GMT

♥today is me and pat's 1 year and 4 months♥

Fri, 24 Feb 2006 23:59:18 GMT

its been on my mind for awhile now... just the fact of how i know for sure that some of my so called friends arent really my friends anymore. its something that i know has happend and is continuing to happen but im still at the phase were i refuse to accpet it. i guess im just going to have to because no matter how hard i try, nothing can be repaired now. and really this isnt my choice, but it is theirs. they change, act completely different, and are just not the same people anymore. it really upsets me, and whenever i try to adress it, it seems as if they dont even care so im not even going to try anymore. just do what you wanna do, and be who you wanna be. im not saying who the people are that this is about, really you should know who you are. because just look at how far we have drifted. honestly were not even best friends anymore. its like were only aqquaintances. idk. this was your choice. not mine. and if i could do something about it, i certainly would, but now its all beyond repairable.

Sun, 19 Feb 2006 07:29:18 GMT

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY MISSY<3

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 19:22:31 GMT

so pretty much the whole weekend ive not been feeling good. but instead of staying home in bed i was convinced that i wasnt going to let it ruin my weekend. well now its monday and its all caught up on me so i was feeling too sick this morning to go to school. honestly i really needed the day off. school has really been too much and with swimming it just all out sucks. but anyways. tomorrow is valentines day♥!!and im so excited! i get to spend the whole day with my baby♥! and he said were going out to have a romantic dinner but he wont tell me where were going. and i really wanna know! but i like surprises so im really excited. ive been looking forward to this day for weeks now. =) yayy. whats everyone else doing for valentines day with there sweeties???♥ well yea. so i hope that im feeling alot better for tomorrow because i would hate to be sick on valentines day. so thats pretty much all there is to update about right now.

missy said that no one will repost this...so im proving her wrong =)...i love you melissa♥

[1]. Name one person on your mind right now?
♥Pat♥

[2]. Do you think your life has been good so far?
at this point in life none of us have reached the point where we know our true selves and who we really are. meaning that the good in our future is yet to come. as of right now i pretty much love my life. except for the few things i wish i could change. buti love knowing that the future will be even better. =)

[3]. What's your mother's maiden name?
Buttito

[4]. What's the last thing you listend to?
my phone ring

[5]. Where's the last place you went?
lastnight i drove to jewel with dave and lanie to visit pat while he was working.

[6]. Who's the last person you called?
Pat, to tell him that im not going to school today.

[7]. Who's the last person you text messaged?
Pat

[8]. What's the longest relationship you've ever been in?
the one im in right now, 1 year and 3 months

[9]. Why did it end?
it hasn't ended

[10]. Been cheated on?
never

[11]. Ever thought you were in love only to find out later that you weren't?
nope, im with my first true love right now and i know that im in love.

[12]. What's the best thing about a kiss?
just the fact of knowing that your with someone that you care about and just the passion that is between you and him when you kiss and the feeling of romanceand just the feeling of knowing that your in love with this person.

[13]. What's your favorite body type to cuddle with?
my boyfriend is the perfect body type to cuddle with

[14]. Do you look like your mom or dad?
i think i look more like my mom. whenever i see her pictures of when she was younger she looks exactly the way i do.

[15]. Do you have siblings? If so, do you look alike?
yea, my sister kelsey. everyone says that we look exactly alike.

[16]. Do you smile often?
when im happy i do. but honestly i hate my smile.

[17]. Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
i hope that a certain someone is.

[18]. Could you be a vegetarian?
i highly doubt it

[19]. Are you sentimental?
yea thats me

[20]. If you had to get married tomorrow, who would you marry?
Pat

[21]. Who would be in your wedding?
my family, my friends, his family, his friends, his band

[22]. Who would you want to catch the bouquet?
hmmmmm. idk.

[23]. Do you know anyone who wants to marry you?
ive talked about it with him all the time. so im hoping that he would want to.

[24]. Ever thought someone was "the one"?
i think that who im with right now is the one.

[25]. What will be your wedding song?
i dont know. ive never really thought about a song for that.

[26]. What is your middle name?
Kathleen

[27]. If there were 3 wells (love, beauty, and creativity) which one would you pick?
Love

[28]. Do you wish on stars?
all the time

[29]. Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
haha. never.

[30]. Would you kill someone?
never, im not a violent person at all.

[31].When did you last cry?
yesterday

[32]. If you were making a movie about yourself, who would play the lead?
idk...

[33]. Do you like your handwriting?
sometimes

[34]. Who are you jealous of?
alot of people, but for different reasons.

[35]. Have you ever been in a mosh pit?
ive been to shows were there are mosh pits, but im too scared to ever actally go in one.

[36]. What is your favorite lunch meat?
Turkey or Salami

[37]. Do you have any bad habits?
biting my nails

[38]. If you were another person, would you be friends with yourself?
yea

[39]. Do looks matter?
sometimes

[40]. What is your favorite school subject?
spanish

[41]. Who will probably repost this?
probably no one. but im glad that i did. because i proved missy wrong. =)

Sat, 04 Feb 2006 00:04:09 GMT

so yesterday i finally got my ring back from kohls. i can't believe it took over a month to get a ring sized. but im really happy that i have it back. its so pretty =). so yea. tonight im leaving to go with pat to wisconson when he gets off of work. i need some time to vent about somethings that have been getting to me about friends. and yea. so i think this weekend will be the perfect oppurtunity. its lauras birthday and were all gonna party. so it should be fun. i love pats sister. shes so cute. and yea. so im coming home on sunday. yay super sunday! not... i hate football. but its all good. so yea. thats all there is for me to say right now. comments!?
only like 11 more days until valentines day! excited!? cuz i am!!
and only like 16 more days until melissa's 16th birthday!!! wooo hooo!!!
♥goodbye my love.

Sat, 28 Jan 2006 19:34:57 GMT

My Mana Marie♥

Mana, you are honestly one of the most important people in my life. I really just dont know what i would possibly do without you. Your one person that i can truley call a bestfriend. Its never been an on and off bestfriend thing. But in my eyes you've been my bestfriend since day one. Its really amazing to see how far we've come in these three years of being friends, all of those other friendships never ended up lasting. but look at us. were still the best of friends. and still going strong. We've been through so much together that i do consider you as my sister. The little arguments we get into are just some sisterly love. =). You have helped me through so much and i really think that if it hadnt been for you then i wouldnt be the person that i am now. I love you so dearly and i would never give up our friendship for anything in this world. Even though latley things havent been too great. i still love you. and i wanna be here for you. but you just have to let me. im sorry for anything ive ever done thats effected you in any way. i love you so much my mana marie♥ i am convinced that our friendship will last forever =)

My Baby♥

Pat, ever since day one i knew that you and me were meant to be. Finding you had to of been one of the greatest things that could of ever happend to me. Having you in my life has been such a blessing. and i wouldnt trade it in for anything in this whole entire world. it makes me so happy to have found someone that i can honestly say is my one true love. the person i want to be with forever. its been over a year together, and i have treasured every moment of that. through all of our little arguments we have always magaged to pull through. and in the end it would only make us stronger. i honestly dont know what i would do in this world if i didnt have you by my side. you are the best thing that has ever happend to me. and i absolutely love you to death. i could never imagine being in love with anyone else. your the one person i know im meant to be with. i love you more than you could ever imagine. Our love for eachother is so strong and i just know that you and me will hold on to eachother forever. i love you with all of my heart and all of my soul. and i promise you my love forever more♥

Mellissa Danielle Freidman♥

Melissa Danielle Freidman, we have had so many good memories and good times together that in our friendship there was never any regrets.ever since you moved its been hard to keep our friendhip together. but in my heart i will always consider you my bestfriend. i never wanted you moving to be something that would come between our friendship but i guess its something that was just happend. and really i think we knew that it would. for all of our time of being friends i have always looked up to you and admired you for the person that you were. you truly are someone that i can say is my heroe. We've always had a special connection and we've always been able to talk to eachother about anything while exchanging advice.being friends with you is something that will always mean so much to me. i love you so much. and i want you to know that i will always consider you as my bestfriend and my sister. ♥

this is the heroes section of my myspace.

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 07:32:34 GMT

new screen name. add it.

xi hx3art youx

Sat, 21 Jan 2006 15:49:39 GMT

it's been quite a while since i updated. and not too much has really been going on or happening. well. me and amanda highlighted my hair. theres pictures on myspace if you want to see it. i think it looks nice. my hair was so dark before and i like the way that it looks lighter now. but yea. and finals finished yesterday. im really feeling confident about my final grades. the only one i think i did bad on was english. and my spanish teacher emailed my mom telling her i got an A on my spanish final. so that really surprised me. thats like the best grade ive ever gotten on a final. so that made me happy and luckily it made my parents happy. and thats that of school. im excited for the 26th because thats when i get my promise ring back from taking it to get sized. and i hate the fact that it snowed lastnight. it was a pretty fucked up thing. snow, lightnig, and thunder. what is this world coming to??? but anyways. thats pretty much all thats been going on. im gonna try to update in this a little more. even if people dont comment. idk why. but i just feel like i have to.

Mon, 16 Jan 2006 03:56:56 GMT

=( please cheer me up. say something to make me smile♥

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 23:47:48 GMT

so yeah. nothings really been going on lately. i pretty much gave up on this thing. but im here once again. =). well finals are coming up. and it totally blows. but anyway. my and my baby are doing good. i love him so much. and i hope everyone else is doing good in their love lives, you can comment me telling me about it if you want because i care about you all. and also i hope everyone is doing good in school and with everything else they are doing. well i best be going. comment if you want.
♥errrrrin

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 06:52:33 GMT

no one ever comments anymore. it's pretty much making me start to hate livejournal. i feel like no ones even reading what i say. maybe this whole thing is just a waste of time.

ilovepat♥

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 22:29:42 GMT

tell me how much you love me!?♥
ill comment you back telling you how much i love you♥

=)

Tue, 03 Jan 2006 00:26:46 GMT

this winter break has been totally amazing. talk about a good time. =). well this is what happened in small detail:
worked almost everyday. but thank god works finally over.
the 28th spent the day with amanda. nick missed his first flight. and then went to pick him up at the airport.
pat slept over 6 days in a row. ♥
went to the stm show the 29th.
for new years went out to dinner with pat, amanda, and nick. and watched movies, and chilled at amandas. counted down. and had a make out session =).
i got a new digital camera. and so did amanda.
and pat got himself a new cell phone. and its t-mobile so its free mobile to mobile for him and me. =)
and right now its the day before school starts and me and amanda are doing our damn speeches and i also have to write a book report. talk about last minute for everything.
and the rest of this week i will be with amanda, pat, and nick.
hopefully i will find time to update this week.
goodbye♥

=)

Mon, 26 Dec 2005 06:35:00 GMT

well i hope everyone had a good christmas. i guess it turned out alot better than i had expected. pat got me a promise ring!!♥♥♥ and its absolutely the most gourgeous thing i have ever seen in my life. its a pink heart with three little white diamonds on each side. its sooo pretty. i love him soooo much♥. it really meant alot to me. i missed him today though because he was in wisconson with his mom. tomorrow im going shopping with amanda. so hopefully that will be fun. that will pretty much take up most of my day. and then pats coming over at 9 when he gets off of work. and i cant wait to see him =). well i hope everyone enjoyed their day. im tired and dont really know what else to say. im pretty much speachless at this point. please comment♥
i♥pat carey more than you could ever imagine♥

Sat, 24 Dec 2005 16:41:54 GMT

christmas is supposed to be a time of love and joy and happiness and being with family. but how come i dont feel love from my family?. i hate that feeling. i wish that for once in my life there would be a good holiday and that my family would love me. and that they wouldnt yell and scream. and that my sister wouldnt have such a bad attitude about everything. im happy its christmas time and all but i just wish things were different with my family. thank god i have pat and all my friends to love me and be there for me. even though i wont get to see pat on christmas(which makes me sad) i still know he loves me.me and him are giving eachother our gifts on christmas eve since i wont see him christmas day. yayy. ive been dying to find out what he got me. and i guess ill find out tonight. =) well i wish everyone a merry christmas!! and be safe!!

Thu, 22 Dec 2005 07:05:23 GMT

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TO CONOR & ASHY!!

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 16:09:56 GMT

15 random things on my mind
1. it feels good that its winter break, but then again its kinda depressing. you'd have to understand why i feel that way though.
2. i absolutely cannot wait until christmas♥
3. i really hate the snow, and i hate driving in the snow, and i hate the coldness of winter. i love the smell of winter because it smells so fresh and pure. but i just hate how cold it gets outside.
4.i really wanna know what my boyfriend got me for christmas♥ =), but then again i'd rather it be a surprise.
5. im becoming really stressed out because theres so much stuff that i need to do over break thats school related. speech, read a book and write a book report, my final exam prodject for women studies. it feels like its all closing in on me.
6. i wanna go on a roadtrip. but i barely know my way around here.
7. i cant wait to go shopping after christmas♥
8. i want the things that make us happy to be here forever♥
9. drama=dunzo
10. i wanna be kissed under the mistletoe.♥
11. nick is coming sooner than we think. im happy for amanda. =)
12. making the most of winter break is out of the question.
13. our christmas tree isnt even up yet. =(
14. i wish new years to be amazing
15. ive come to the conclusion that im obsessed with gum and chapstick. =)

leave me some comments!♥

Who is...?
The weirdest person you know: hmmm. i'd have to say tom.
Your close friends: amanDUH aka. MANA MARIE♥, misSAY, LEXi, KARa, PAT, TOMmy, WARren
The Person that Knows the Most about you: MANA MARIE
Most Boring Teacher: mr. rusniak

1. What is...?
your most overused phrase on IM: yayy.
the last image/thought when you go to sleep with: my baby♥ =)
your best feature: you tell me your opinion???

2. Do You...?
Take a shower every day?: Yes!
have a(any) crush(es): more than a crush. my boyfriend♥
think you know you've been in love: i know im in love♥
want to get married: yesssss =)

have any tattoos/where?: no
piercings/where?: cartiliage, and one on each ear lobe.
motion sickness: no never have.
think you're a health freak: no
get along with your parents: hah. theres a joke.
like thunderstorms: ever since i was little. ive always loved them. =)

SIGN: scorpio
NATURAL HAIR COLOR: dark brown
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: dark brown
EYE COLOR: brown
BIRTHPLACE: elk grove
PARENTS: regina & christopher.
SIIBLINGS: kelsey
LIVE WITH: mom & dad
FAVORITE RELATIVE: aunt trish

(FAVORITES)
NUMBER: 18
COLOR: pink
DAY: saturday
MONTH: november
SONG: stickwitu
FOOD: chipoltle
SEASON: spring
SPORT: basketball
DRINK: jamba juice

(PREFERENCES)
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT? thats a toughy. uhhh either!
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE? hot chocolate
MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE? dark
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE? chocolate

(IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU....)
CRIED? unfortunately yesss.
HELPED SOMEONE? yah. helped amanda find out what nicks getting her for christmas. lol. =)
BOUGHT SOMETHING? yes
GOTTEN SICK? no
GONE TO THE MOVIES? no
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? no
SAID "I LOVE YOU"? yesss. to my baby
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? no
TALKED TO AN EX? no
MISSED AN EX? psh. noooo.
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? this one
TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU CRUSH ON? my boyfriend♥
HAD A SERIOUS TALK? not in the last 24 hours. but i did on saturday night. it was a good talk too♥ brought a smile to my face for about an hour. =)
MISSED SOMEONE? yesss.
HUGGED SOMEONE? yesss.
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? its never ending.
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? no

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 18:41:10 GMT

im so glad that today is the last day of school before break. ive been sick like this whole week and im just glad that now i will be able to rest and spend time with the people who are special to me. today after school im going christmas shopping with pat and were going to take pictures together and just be silly like that. that means that ill most likely be getting new pictures up on myspace which i really need badly. but yea. i just felt like saying something since i havent updated in a few days. well the bells about to ring so i must go. ill update lata. be a doll and leave me some comments♥

license=freedom

Sat, 10 Dec 2005 01:41:25 GMT

being able to finally get out and drive on my own is an amazing feeling. its one giant step toward freedom. it just sucks that the weathers been the way that it has. i have to say that "i hate the snow". but i cant wait until winter break. because school disgusts me. well works been going good. after the holidays im gonna have to find a job somewhere. any ideas where? i was thinking petsmart because i love animals. but i dont know yet. im excited because christmas is right around the corner. but what sucks is that finals are also right around the corner. blahhhh. well today i did some christmas shopping with my mom. and im not even close to being done. and it sucks because tomorrow i have to go into work at 9 AM. ehhhh. but its only going to be for a few hours which is good. so hopefully ill be outta there my noon. well thats all for now i suppose. leave me some comments!? =)

Wed, 07 Dec 2005 23:26:59 GMT

i got my license!!!!!

hell yeah!

Sun, 04 Dec 2005 18:22:49 GMT

friday i worked from right after school until 9. and then pat came over and we were both exhausted from work so we both fell asleep. and then i woke up and he left because it was kinda late. and thenyesterday i took a stand. i ended up feeling bad in the end but then again im somewhat proud that i did. but besides that. i just basically sat at home. i went out to lunch with my mom to panera bread. and went with her to jewel to get some groceries. my dad brought home my first pay check from work. it was only for one day though which was monday. and i made $31. i think thats pretty good for just one day. and then amanda came by for a little bit. and then she left. and then pat called at like 12:45 and says hes coming over. so he came over and stayed until 3. yayy. i was soooo tired though. but i stayed awake. and then today during the day im going to work on my homework. because i have a paper on abortion to do for women studies. and then when pat gets off of work at 6 im going to his house because there having band practice. so yeah. thats whats been going on.
♥today is me and pat's 1 year & 1 month♥ yayy. =) i love him♥

Tue, 29 Nov 2005 19:07:29 GMT

yesterday was my first day of work. who would have thought that dipping wine bottles in chocolate would be so hard. it was a tough job to do. but its a good first job. eventually after christmas i will be getting a different job somewhere else because this job is only temporary for the holidays. wednesday i get to go meet my new dentist. and i was supposed to work thursday but i think thats changeing because my dad needs the kitchen that night because theres a wedding going on. so i might end up working friday or something. but idk yet. so since im not working thursday pat asked me to come to matts house to see there band practice. so i guess im doing that. and yea. im kinda mad about some things right now. which i dont feel like mentioning. goodbye.